Xanecstasy?

In the beginning, I was angry because I was frustrated from gender dysphoria. To cope, I began self-medicating with natural products. Since it was difficult to get expert advice, I did what I always do in those situations... I read all the background research I could find, and I started my own experiments.

Although my efforts helped with the anger, (and taught me how to party) I was obviously only treating symptoms. That's why last year, I started self-medicating with hormones. When experimental evidence pointed toward long-term use, finding a medical doctor became a priority. At that time, the doctor suggested I take an anti-depressant, but because I've always felt my sadness was environmental, and because I'm not pro-drugs just for the sake of drugs, I declined.

So the hormones have started working, life was generally good, and for the first time in a long time, I was happy with my progress... yet as a result of living in Muncie, the sadness persisted. And then the universe provided for me 0.5 mg of Xanax.

Me likey. More experiementation needed.