I've got the cable on the wall for no reason other than I figured since I'm paying for it, I might as well see what's out there. One afternoon at 4:20, while I'm reflecting on the fact that I just lost a boy for cross-dressing, the wall shows me images of a girl winning a boy while cross-dressing.So... I guess it's a wash?
Sigh, no. It's so depressing to find out someone you thought was a good person, someone you thought was a cool... someone you called a friend turns out to be just another bigot.
A bigot is a prejudiced person who is intolerant of opinions, lifestyles, or identities differing from his or her own.Harsh words from me? After being ignored for weeks, check out this IM I received from a friend:
It's not that I dont want to hear from you. It's that I don't know how to relate to people that wear women's clothing. I don't understand it , I don't like it, It's is crazy to me, and I kind of wish you had never let me see that part of you. we could have been friends without having to know this. I'm sorry, but I don't want to hangout with a thirty year old man who thinks he's a fourteen year old girl.Ouch! With friends like that, who needs enemies? How shall I deconstruct thee, let me count the ways...
- It's not that I dont want to hear from you. Um, I'm sorry but with phrases like "I don't like it," "I wish you had never let me see that part of you," and "I don't want to hangout..." it sounds like you exactly don't want to hear from me. Please forgive me for acting accordingly.
- I don't know hot to relate to people that wear women's clothing. Approximately half of all humans wear women's clothing, but don't worry, relating to them is easy. Just be nice to them, take a shower, wash your clothes, maybe buy them dinner, and you might see more of them.
- I don't understand, I don't like it, It's crazy to me. Honey, you won't understand 1/50th of the knowledge contained in my brain or my experiences. You calling me crazy is like a pebble calling a mountain small; it ain't true empirically or relatively, it's just naive. Crazier is to harbor intolerance with a closed mind. You don't understand? ASK! You don't like? Find what it is within you that is causing such a reaction, and ask yourself, "Am I free to judge?"
- I kind of wish you had never let me see that part of you. Then you never would have met me...
- We could have been friends without having to know this. Not really, my friends like me for me, and not because I'm what they want me to be. But I would have still been nice to you.
- I'm sorry, but I don't want to hangout with a thirty year old man who thinks he's a fourteen year old girl. Ouch. That's rich coming from a man who lives at home with his parents. I'm sorry you turned out to be a bigot.
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I must say that I was very harsh for no reason, and for that I apologize. But I've never had man grab my leg and caress it. It freaked me out, because I did not enjoy it, it had a very strong physical effect on me(not what you think). It made me panic, first-time-in-my-life-honest-to-reality-trouble-breathing-panic-attack.
I know that this can never make up for my reaction to your choice. But, I think you've all ready made up your mind about me, anyway.
Thanks Micah for helping me understand what happened that painful day. I desperately wanted to believe there was some other explanation because it was so not like you to just turn off like that. So no... my mind wasn't made up about you.
It is regrettable that a innocent touch can cause such a reaction. For that, I am sorry too.
I don't want to precipitate another crisis, but it's kinda funny (now), the whole you-and-I thing... if you only had met me now, 18 months later, you'd never suspect I wasn't born female.
At least, no one else does anymore. So maybe there's a chance your mind isn't made up over me either?
If it is not too much to ask, I would like the opportunity for us to become reacquainted. I know you probably live no where near Muncie, but email works. I think it would help me understand myself better, if I understood you better.
Sent you an email... you might have to look in your SPAM folder, email servers are not as open-minded as you.
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